I just want this pain to go away, it has taken control of me effecting everything I do. How I speak, think, feel … it even effects everything I don’t do. I don’t wanna hurt no more, I need a healer … I need a “moment”
I’m bacccckkkk lol and one aspect of my life is going quiet well I jus need the rest to fall in place … Starting all over again with a new girl and a whole new life lost a lot of ppl in my life and idk how I feel about that but basically it is what it is I need to be going places and my eye is on the top I am really going to stay focused and keep pushing for things to go my way and hopefully they do I’m so happy now and hopefully I will always have a reason to keep smiling …
Even with a second shot I jus couldn’t seem to be good enough for us u and everything u wanted I’m so fucking in love with u I would die for you with everything going on right now I’m disappearing again into an emotional fucking wreck what do I do the hardest thing is saying goodbye to my life that I want so much I was excited that I finally could get there to things I wanted I planned for why all this hurt I had to suffer the cheating the squirly ness I wish u could straight up jus tell me everything I wish we could talk this out really jus see were it went wrong where I went wrong she went wrong ugh another day no food another night no sleep beside that I got family problems on the wide god why have u turned away from me why has everyone turned there back on me
I ask myself that same fckn question I’m mad at hella ppl and I hold grudges shit I’m still holding some but on the flip side I honestly don’t wanna be like that anymore how I fix it and let it go hopefully my prayers for theses grudges will be answered that’s basically my last hope
Tonight was the last night imma give a shit about this so after tonight no worries boo I’m done being Hurt and played with cheated in etc
Lately I have been trying to figure out things like evaluating life my relationships am I happy what do I like so I have decided to start trying to make my own jewelry and
Jus put my own twists on things clothes etc I have been doing research on things etc who knows but this cud be fun….
